Friday, 20 February 2015


the meaning of success varies from different people.
some people just love to enjoy all the time without having a determined goal or priority.
but to me, i have my own definition of success.

to me, manage to fulfill the requirements on time is not my definition of success like what most of my colleagues strive for.
to me, fulfilling the requirements are only an obligation in studies. some people may feel stressed out to get it done on time. i called it "KERJA BURUH"

to me success is when u are able to do something that u are passionate about and strive for better future ahead.
to me success is when i am able to challenge myself to be in a position that i never expect to be and able to do something out of my capabilities.
in other words, majoring multiple fields.

success cannot be accomplished only by words, day dreaming and procrastinate however, the meaning of success is when u are able to ACT, WORK HARD and ENJOY in the journey of striving the life goal and stop thinking about quitting eventhough u had a very tough "root canal treatment".
(but i always though of quiting urgh)
this is our table clinic. we didnt win though.
however, we manage to make replicas of the ancient toothbrush
and presented the development of oral hygiene practices since the Paleolithic.
and that was a huge success for us.
good feedbacks from the lecturers regarding our presentation were very overwhelming.
sometimes winning an award or nobel prize doesnt reflect that we are successful.
it is the satisfaction towards what are we working for determines the meaning of success.



Hi ! it has been a long time i left blogging.
too many commitments and my semester breaks are getting lesser and lesser.
i wont be having any breaks until July except for study week.
well study week are meant to be for studying not for vacation right. so dont blame the exam if u are not passing. blame urselves for not utilizing the study week. ehem sorry for the distraction.

so here i am final year dental survivor.
i still couldnt believe that i could make it this far. but, my requirements are still slow.
i still need to finish 5 dentures and 5 fix prosthesis within this semester. omg i so freaking out i might not completed all on time.
i still need to think of my partner as well. she may need sessions as much as i do.

a few months left and a few more steps to get to the finishing line, many obstacles started to happen in every clinics.
my RA patients, 1 left for JB and another 1 started working and difficult to find time to come for appointments.
i hope the "back ups" can still hanging on with the appointments until July.
im paying my patient's bus ticket from Malacca so she can come to the appointment.
Sacrifice, huh.

last time i got a massive problem with Pediatrics and Alhamdulillah Azni (my patient) saved me with so many cases and very cooperative. i really appreciate it. but then, tried to call the mother last week for another pulp therapy but not picking up the phone. THIS IS SAD. been calling her for the whole week though.

so far, i still love doing difficult extractions and Minor Oral Surgery however, there are times where i have this feeling of quitting while attempting a difficult extraction with forceps and elevators on my hands.

Dentistry is just something that i want to make my parents proud and not something that i really passionate about. there are times i feel it is such a burden to me.
Yes, it benefits for my future but u are dealing with real people, human beings so how u expect u will give the best treatment if u dont have any interest of learning it and dont feel enjoy of what are u doing.

are u going to let me live and work for the rest of my life doing sometimes that cause me STRESS AND TROUBLE. that is not love. that is SELFISH.

right now, im just forcing myself to work hard to the fullest for the degree.
"Bachelor of dental surgery" - sounded pretty nice for apart of Nurzafirah Ilias's scrapbook

cant wait to graduate and get married.
OK stop with the bebelan.

just put a smile on ur face and move on. and make others happy