DR ZUFFY ZAFIRAH

Salam everybody! get ready for a long post, now ! yeah i wanna talk about boys. why? it's because of this. i felt anxiously wonder when one of my girlfriends suddenly threw this statement. i dont believe that u would ever have a boyfriend . it sounds way too harsh is it? this is the first time i heard from a person. before this i always get an opposite statement.  but this statement makes me felt like  a  low level wilted gloomy ROSE   in a garden full of beautiful fresh high powerful ROses with sharpy thorns.  i dont even care whether i have a boyfriend or not whether i should have or not i treat my guy friends, every single person like other people.  like friends.(durh) like normal people. the way i talked to them all are in the  same level,  same tone,  same pitch,  same frequency. plus i am not looking for A BOYFRIEND. i am looking for a future  HUSBAND . (the one who can take cares of me, guide me.  not a immatur...

Salam Everyoneee! sorry for not updating for awhile now~~ having a few crisis...  let's not talk about it shall we... i was having my Professional Exam and Final Exam ... and right now, i can only recite dua for my extra extra effort for this semester. i really hope that i will pass for both papers. InsyaAllah. right now, i am waiting for my Viva Voce list. it's a list for the borderline students and for also students who excel and willl get distinction if they pass the Viva Voce. and as for the borderline students, Viva Voce helps them to pass the exam. *maybe someone like me?~~huuu the list is going to be released this Monday. (fingers crossed) during my study week, i took Red Bull as a new drug to make me stay up late at night  actually it's 6 bottles of Red Bull. but it doesnt really gave much effect on me. Only for one day i guess. and when i drink a bottle 2 days in a row, i started to get tachycardia.wahah so i skip 1 day everytime i drink it. stil...

Salam Everybody! if u guys noticed, i changed my blog URL. hehehe this is the SECOND time. before this, it was theloveofzuffy.blogspot.com and now, it's zuffylovenot.blogspot.com reason for it,  firstly , i'm avoiding stalkers got some unwanted stalkers that have been stalking my blog. *stalking doesnt mean enjoy reading* it's just that i dont want people around me to judge me differently cuz there's certain things that i'm too embarrassed to share with people but i do share in the blog.hehe. and secondly .... just look at it. it says zuffylove NOT compared to the previous ones which is t he LOVE ofzuffy. starting from now, i dont believe in love. Not at all. Love is super sucks. well i dont believe love before marriage . i dont believe love with the same age. i dont believe love to the opposite sex . i just believe the love towards Allah, the nobel Prophet and DENTISTRY. but these may be temperory for now. -i think cuz now, everytime i look ...

hahahah scary cat huh? laugh as loud and as hard as u can let the pressure go away live with what u have never let the bad history come and get u! hhahahaha peace everybody. love all. SALAM MAULIDUR RASUL Selawat banyak banyak k. XOXO <3

yeah. i love guitars. i've wanted to play one since i was 11. unfortunately, i cant. PARENTAL CONTROL. haha what do u expect.? but i still want to play one now. despite the fact that i still dont have the chance to learn. parental control again. well i can dream about it..  maybe in a few year? i'll get one. and i need a tutor for sure! yeah my cousin for sure! =)))) HAHAHAH i totally forgot. like i have the chance to play and learn within my tight dentistry schedule? hahahaha <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 i'm in love with u. always will. HAHAHHA XOXO<3

Leave the past. Stay with present and Get ready for the future. i cant let myself too overjoy this year. i might end up crying sooner or later. just like what the old folks said, " jangan seronok sangat. nanti menangis." 2010 is the year that i cried a lot. i mean like super super major lots of tears. a lot of crisis, conflicts, dilemmas. but Alhamdulillah i overcomed all those negative stuff away. i started a little bit slow. and now i became more proactive, passionate. i gained relationships with people around me. and i've been too overjoyed and i lost them one by one well not literally mentally lost. haha (?) yeah i got some dilemmas, emotional abuse in the end of 2010 insyaAllah i'll calm myself up in 2011. and i'm OK. InsyaAllah i can finally accept my fate. eventhough i blamed the fate(past) for what had happened to me (astrghfirullahalazim) i became more stronger. no matter what people did to me,   I'M A FIGHTER! Go Zuf...

NEW YEAR , NEW HOPE , NEW ME . happy new year everybody! Alhamdulillah i've gone through with my current problem smoothly just now. i felt relieved. after all these days, i've been stuck in my own bloody heart i finally felt free . YET. i dunno whether this is temporary or permanent. i hope this is permanent. i wish. >< hoho but the problem is now, i dont think that the old  feelings is totally reversed now . tipu lah kalau cakap dah tak rase pape. i still got that feelings. =S the only strategy for me to get over it so that i can live happily, is.........: 1st, find another man.! 2nd, get engaged! wahahahhahah that is insane. but actually it did works. like what i did before. i met somebody else before when i got my very first major crisis a year ago. and we stay as best buddies until now.  bahahaha! hmmmmm am i going to meet somebody else again? like before?  the one who will recover me from my past? another guy best friend perhaps? gu...

kenape rase terasa sangat ni? ='( tak boleh macam ni Zaf! please dont! u have to be strong ! like before! it's not the end! well it's a lot different situation and feelings than before. i realized i cant ignore all these. like it doesnt effects me at all?! i tried to laugh aloud, get social with my girlfriends to recover myself but i end up getting much much worst. it had been days already. and thankfully my angel calm me up. i kept the  pus within me for quite long and i finally squeezed it out to her. she cant really say anything just cheering me up. but then i'm okey again. -yet the bad emotion started again today. well she left home. so i cant really get anyone else to confront me but her. i'm sorry that i had to post this out it's just that i cant kept it much longer in this empty can. plus i cant go home. Me parents and lil bro were in Bandung now. yeah left me alone in the hostel. i tried to catch up my previous Lectures to...

i'm SICK. i'm starve. PALLOR . blank heart.  i'm no longer a bright daisy but gloomy . i'm down, i'm energy-less, i'm crazy, i'm a small piece of tasteless cake ! Goodbye and Thank You. Enjoy the show. T___T XOXO <3

am making a malay post again k. malam semalam ku tak dapat tido langsong. tak ngantok langsong. perut ku jua tak dapat menerima apa apa. banyak kejutan ku dapat. ku menerima tamparan yang cukup besar. mula dari petang hingga ke malam. ada je yang tak kena dari waktu ke waktu. akhirnya ku temui jalan yang tulus. terima kasih kepada 4 rakan ku yang berada di Malaysia dan perantauan. ku mula tahu kebenarannya selama ini dengan hanya satu malam, satu pagi yang hening. ini sememangnya yang ku jangka kan sejak permulaan kali. memang tepat sekali. CUKUP TEPAT . memang salah ku kerana tidak pernah belajar dari kesilapan. namun ku sudah bersedia dengan apa jua yang akan menimpa diriku sejak mula lagi. aku hanya boleh redha dengan ketentuanNya. mungkin ini adalah yang terbaik bagi diriku ada hikmah disebalik apa yang terjadi. mungkin Allah ingin ku lebih memahami erti kehidupan. dengan menguji ku dengan pelbagai dugaan . ku berharap dapat mengawal emosi ku dengan ca...

THANK YOU for ur existence in my life thank you for brightens my life thank you for making me felt special for just a few moments thank you for making me smile i appreciate every single moment we had i noe im not good enough but thank you thank you for making me happy . insyaAllah we'll meet again. XOXO <3

i got these from facebook. read it out. and as for guys especially, U GUYS MUST READ IT. *THE BOYFRIEND* hehe ;) Boy:  I broke up with her. His Best Friend:  What happened? Boy:  She’s just too much for me. His Best Friend:  What makes you say that? What did she do wrong? Boy:  Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure.. His Best Friend:  So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see.. Boy:  Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy! His Best Friend:  So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you  a lot ? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see.. Boy:  But.. Uhh....

cerita ini adalah REKAAN semata mata dan DITOKOK TAMBAH tapi mungkin ada kena mengena dengan sesiapa. hehe ;)  ALKISAH....., Ada seorang gadis serba kekurangan. Dia bukan lah gadis yang sempurna. Kadang kadang dia terpikir jugak. Aku ni takda apa apa yang special ke. At least something? Aku ni takda ke skill? belajar takda la pandai mana. Tak pernah jadi student favourite ke apa. Pastu plak selalu kena marah kat rumah. Dimalukan depan tetamu lah. Padahal benda yang dia buat tu bukannya kesalahan yang amat besar pon. Takda menyusahkan orang pon.  Kadang kadang terasa mereka(orang rumah) buat begitu sebab ada tetamu.  Sengaja nak memalukan dia. Kadang kadang dia terasa juga yang dia lah yang paling terok kat dalam dunia. Agak susah untuk mendapat kasih sayang daripada keluarga sendiri. Perkataan sayang pon tak pernah diungkapkan kepadanya.  Ok lah bagi nick name kat budak ni Yuu laa.hehe.  Kalau apa apa Yuu selalu mengadu kat bestfren dia, Luu. tapi kadang ka...

OK. i dont noe what's wrong with me now. i did really silly things recently. first, i spilled lemonade on my lappy. - but my lappy is back to normal now. as good as before. thanks to Zaty for the hair dryer. secondly, i fall while i was searching for Puan Fazillah's room (my CS lecturer). and it was humiliating. i fall in front of a group of unknown guys. they laughed at me. BAD PEOPLE!!! when i fell, i didnt make any response. i just said, " sakettt..." but then i didnt make any facial expression. Thirah said " buat   muke blur je time awk jatuh tadi " haha the reason that i made that silly facial expression is because i noe im going to be real humiliated. that's why i just acted cool and like there's nothing happened. however, i'm really thankful that my kainbajukurung didnt slip off. sexy nanti ohhh!!!   thirdly, i was reaching for my Febreze just now. and i broke a vast it fell from above my head actually it's jus...

im turning 19 yesterday. this is my final teenage years. no more teen next year. but im excited!!! im getting older! n i can get married sooner or later!!!! hahahaha this year i got the a lot of wishes from my friends. THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH GUYS. although my birthday is just a birthday, i'm happy that i have friends. apart from my family, only my sister wishes me birthday.=_= oh thank you to YOU for calling me that night. i thought that u wont called or text, despite the fact that u'll having ur finals next week. and insufficient credit.haha hahaha sorry that i hang up on that exact 12am. because of that u didnt get to be the 1st one to wish me birthday. Nany took ur place instead.wahahaha. sorry. but still, THANK YOU for making me sleepy on my birthday.haha u owe me a Birthday Song kan ! dont forget! hehe and thanks Mira for texting me all the way from India! im really flattered that u still remember me birthday! study well, Doc!! oh yes. one...

WOW. sooooo sweeeeeeeeeettttttttttttttttttt ='))) shocking. BUT, 5 years???? without keeping in touch?? i cant stand that. it shows that he did not really care about her! if i were her, confirm i had already with somebody else by the time. heheheh but i really hope people can commit with only one person in such a long duration.. XOXO<3

i am a cry baby. i cried so easily. even for small small thingy. and i humiliated myself in front of the class. i cried in class. i cant help myself. all because of my scholarship agreement. at first, i dont think that i might cry. the thing is, i was sobbing. like really sobbing. i noe what will happen if i told my mom about this. the problem is, my agreement should be in black ball pen. but there's this one part that my mom did in black INK. i didnt realise that before. until today. i was madly worried. and after minutes away, i started to feel the pressure and cant help myself from tearing up. i cant control my emotions . the agreement is very important. and need to be submitted by TODAY. got a lot of stuff to do to complete it. a lot of hard work. i cant depend on my mom. she's a busy woman. she got a lot of stuff to do than settling my problems. i really hope she understands. not like my sister. i called her for advice. bu...

i always wanted a birthday, my special day to be memorable. but every year, it is just the same but slightly better than eid. i want something memorable. something that i will always remember in my whole life. something "first time" or something "new" It is not like what i had last year. what a bad bad birthday. someone that i hate so much is the first person wished me birthday. and i got a huge fight with him 6 days before me birthday. i really wanna people to throw a surprise party for me like in the movies~ so cool. seriously, i need this birthday to be the BEST. I dont want it to be okjustthesamelikealltheseyears.   but will it happened? i dont want to be abandoned with dentistry stressful moment with me. at least, last year i have a couple of friends to talk on phone with as i got a week free call. but now, they are just in front on my nose! no need to be on phone! i can just chat with the literally! hmm. i got no life now. my teenage life ...

a couple of days ago, i got motivated by my mentor, Dr.Farha. telling us all the fields of dentistry. i thought that after i completed my degree, i'll be able to do braces! but sadly i cant! i have to do Masters in Orthodontics for it! =( i dont want to! it's enough for me to get my ass off with dentistry books for 5 years . but i have this 1 goal. where i was like promising to my nephew to get him braces on after i graduated. what i've seen, his teeth're potentially got teeth projection. pity him.  if me, his own aunty, being a Dentist insyaAllah in 5 years, cant get him braces myself, it would be a disappointment. i still got a lot of time to think about this. 5 more years to go. still, i want to get married first . then i'll think about it.hehe if so, i really hope tht i'll pursue my Master with my only love. that will be great! dont u think so? im sorry 'Afif if i cant get u braces by me.  insyaAllah i'll get u o...

* picture of headline with 1000 meanings. i cant stand this anymore. it's only been a week. but i felt it had already been YEARS. i dont like this feeling! when people brought up things about it, i tried to pretend that it got nothing to do with me. * malas la malas pikir, malas!~ that is my rection.haha but then i laugh it out. HAHAHAHAHA hmm.=(  i think i'll be ok in another few days. i guess. =_= but please, dont do this to me-anymore. please stop. say something at least?  XOXO <3 p/s : got any clue what am i talking about? NO? YES? well it's a blog. not a personal diary. cant tell too detail about it.hehehe ^_^